No Day But Today?

So I've been listening to the RENT soundtrack alot as of late.

And through every chorus, every lyric, every vamp, i find myself realizing and remembering the many many things that brought me to the point i am at today.


Now many of you may stop and laugh thinking, "Dude. Its a fucking Musical. It's can't be that big of a deal..."

Well, let's take it back a ways and find out......


Jonathan Larson was one of the most intense writers i have ever known of....

He had such a vision to share his stories and life experiences, and he decided to put them into music on stage. The man has truly changed my life.



RENT centers around a group of people that, in some way or another, become very close, very quickly, though a strange string of events. Through One year, they experience amazing things, hard times, death, and re-connection.

It is something that has been with me for many many years, and the irony in that blows my mind.

People have often told me "Your friendships are like people coming in and out of an elevator. Just coming and going very quickly...."



And yet, RENT, a story of stong friendships, has been with me longer than most of my friends have, and, most likely, longer than they will be as well.

And, Like Roger, even when i have had the best, clost friends anyone could ask for, i've still been the guy sitting alone, looking for something more. Good Thing? Bad Thing? I don't think its either. It's Just Me. Take it as you will.

I find people taking things like that about me as being an "asshole", or they think things "fall on deaf ears", or they immediatly assume i'm being malicious, hurtful, or whatever. But the truth is, i'm not any of those things. I'm just looking for something more. And contrary to what you may think, people throwing away friendships for reasons they are completely wrong about, really does hurt.



"Why are entire years strewn on the cutting room floor of memories? When single frames from one magic night Forever flicker in close up on the 3-D Imax of my mind."



I have had the pleasure of having many Marks, Maureens, A couple Angel's, A wonderful Collins, and my one Mimi. Still have a couple of them. And to the ones who are gone, believe it or not, i truly miss you, and i thank you for being a part of shaping who i am, and you are always in my heart.

Whether or not i have a friend for 3 weeks or 3 years, i know the importance of every second of that friendship, even if you don't. Our Bonds are strong.





Keep the ones close to you as close as you can. Physically or in memory.

There really is, No Day But Today.




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What the hell are we doing here?

Lost in a daze, Can't find what i need.

These people, all they want is to watch you bleed.

I want a life that's beyond me.

Brinking immortality.

The strangest thing is that i am constantly asking myself

"What the fuck am i doing?"

We all, at some point, reach a moment of realization.

An epiphany, of sorts, where we have to stop and make the choice that it's time to change; time to grow up.

It doesn't matter how old you are.

It could take years.

I've been at that point for about 7 months now.

The long process of rediscovering and reinventing yourself to be the person you should be, with an equal balance of who you want to be.

At times, it almost seems like a strange out-of-body experience.

We get so comfortable having no clue who the fuck we are.

And here's me.

Stuck in the middle of a whole bunch of people who are settling instead of trying to better themselves.

Mabye it's selfish of me, but at the same time, it is simply me wanting the best for people.

Chris says it best:

"We all want to fuck ourselves and rape the world."

You gotta live for you.

Find the balance.

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Um.... Hello.

I have so little and so much to say...
It's like, i want to share all of my insights to a deaf audience.
That way, i get everything off my chest, and at the same time, don't have to worry about some douche misinterpreting my every move...

I'm Young.
21 to be exact.
But There is one thing you should know....
My reality is VERY real.
I don't fuck around. i know what's up, and it kills me that so many have no idea what the hell is going on in the world.

I live in Las Vegas.
A city that strives for art but has done.
A city that lives off of the wallets and emotions of the unexpecting.
A cesspool, to say the least.
Wanna come here?
Don't.

A dear friend of mine said "Figuring things out for ourselves is one of the only freedoms we have left. Use that freedom." [Socks]
I completely agree with that.
But for those of you that don't know how to do that, well, that's why i'm here.
What do you want to know?
Religion?
Politics?
Life?
Love?

Try me.
I'll do what i can.

I can't promise that you will like me.
I can't promise you will agree with me.
But i promise you i'm honest.

I'm Andy.
Welcome to my world.